Each day is a new one for people like myself!



Why did I choose to start living as a woman at 50?  I get that question all the time.  The simple answer was “it’s time to be the me I always wanted to be”.  I just didn’t want to live unhappily anymore.  It was never a question for me of being embarrassed or ashamed of wanting to live as woman.  I never will understand why it is so taboo that a man would want to be a woman.
 
 “At this age, I am grateful to have a little more confidence than I did earlier. We are in perilous and inspiring times. The stakes are so high, but often out of the greatest crisis comes the greatest progress.   "I came out to all my friends and loved ones in the winter of 2012." There was a whole load of complexity over my relationship with my spouse, family members and friends who knew me when I projected myself as a male, and I have come to learn that much of the difficulty surrounding my relationships with them was little to do with my decision to living openly and my moving towards transition - but it brought those issues to a head. This has been a very painful process as I have always had a very close, if not special relationship with my spouse and because of the factors that my transition brought out we grew apart. I have always tried to keep this relationship functioning, and we are presently enjoying a renaissance."
Yes I have been bullied and discriminated against all my life, but I didn't allow that to stop me from being who I want to be. I am a true transwoman and I live in the southwestern part of Nevada.
I used to think that some people just hated me because of what I am, or because of the way I dress. What I have found is that the reason they hate me so much, is because I live my life free from the BS and do what is right for me and they cannot do they, so, is it really me they hate or is it because they do not have that same freedom to live their life the way they want to?
Yes it has been a long and hard journey for me! But I would not have traded it for anything. I cannot help but feel that I have made a difference in today's world.
I know that life is hard and there are days when giving up is what you may feel as being the right thing to do, but it is not, one needs to be strong and live, if not for yourself, but for those around you. I know what it is like to have family and friends that have found it very difficult to accept who I'm about... The way I look at it is if they cannot accept me as I am, then that is their lost not mine because I have not changed who I am just because of the way I changed what I wear. I still think and feel the same things that I did before. It is not what is on the outside that counts, it is what is in the inside. My mind and my heart is still the same.
I know many in the trans community that feel that thier world is over and no one cares, but there are people out there that do care, maybe you are just looking in the wrong places.
I ask that you just try to live your life for yourself, don’t worry about what others will think of you, it is not for you to please them, but for them to please you.
Try as hard as you can to be the best you that you can be for you…….

With love from my heart to yours I pray that you will try harder at loving yourself.
Trisha Roberts



 


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